Okieeee. I realized im just blogging once a week. Ehehehe. shows what a guai girl i am. -.- lol whatever. Okie this week was...... ok.

Thurs ate sakae sushi with ck! And on sat i ate pepperlunch! Hehehe. That boy always likes to PAMPER me. ahahaha. I feel so spoiled with him :p hehehehe. <3

Sat headed to town cos ck wanted to cut his messy hair hehe. Cute! :p

Went to tiong bahru w claire. Walau we keep on eatg la. That girl keep on askg me eat with her hehehe. <3

Drinking milo now...... Anyway did i say that I CLOSED MY HELIX PIERCING. Sighhhhhhhhh. Pple la. Keep on askg me to take in take out then infection then i rather close. Tsk nvmd after my Os! So lazy to repierce now. After Os im gna live my life right. W/o studyg or worryg about studyg at all! (until i start my nxt year la) And i'll head out w my girlfs as many times as i can! Right now everyone is BZY. My class is like chionging man!!! What can i say, triple science class. (cheyyy~ k la dont act liao)

Hope i can give myself more motivatn and stop playg around!!

On fri went to chinatown to film for cny video with nick, melvin, prav, siti and ms li with. It was quite fun but was soooo stressful! And a lot of pple were like takg our pics!! Hahaha, feels like a star hehe. Also wen to Grand Shanghi Restaurant to film and ate too! Yum yum!! Didnt have much chance to take pics but i'll take them from mr yew another time!

Ytd enjoyed Rinascemento at victoria concert hall. It was quite good just that those sec 1s behind us damn noisy la. So irritatg to everytime ask them to shut up. Tsk. Headed home arnd midnight. Had a great time w the rest ytd! The band was great, proud of WANYI especially!

THANKS NICK FOR THE PICS.

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Today kind of sucked, but im feeling alright.

Im not perfecttttt, but i keep trygggg, cos that's what i said i would do from the start, im not alive if im lonelyyyyyyy, so please, dont leaveeeee, was it smth i said or just

my personality.

Just few days ago i was bored and searchg thru facebk and i came across Carlos's profile, a guy who i knew like 4 years ago. I was 12 and he was 16. I was from rgps and he hwa chong, so our schs were very close. I got close to him thru my cousin's bday party. I rmbed we were real close and we hanged out before. We were 4 years apart can you imagine?! omg. And i knew his friends sort of mocked at him, bcos i was like so young. We weren't tgt but we were really close, for some time. And then one day on the phone he sort of made me know he liked me, and i told him i didnt and he told me he really thought i did. I didnt i think, i forgot. And then we got into this argument and fought. And we didn't talk since then. His facebk has his photos graduating from army i think, he's 20 now! So old! While im just 16. Well i didnt add him, idk why, it's like i dont dare to. Lookg at his profile made me feel very weird. I almost forgot about that incident.

Well anyhoo, tmrw im gna go chinatown tmrw! And i love thursdaysss. Thurdays = No aep. And we get released at 2.10! whoop. I needa memorize my script now.......

Im feelg, contradicted right now. Ahh heck. I like p.e! hehe.

We were all like this thru the pe lesson heheee!

"I have loved to the point of madness. That which is called madness is the only sensible way to love." F Sagan

Went out ytd and it feels soooo nice to shop quite a lotttttt~

Last night i had a dream, like with Satan! Omg. i was supposed to say and repeat my prayers all over again and again, and then satan came on another sofa and said his prayers very loud to distract me but luckily i ignored. And those who got distracted became weak and kinda died? Ahhhh scary. It was so real that when i woke up i still kept on repeating the prayers in my head. woahhhhhhhhh. haha.

Anyw went to facial at tiong bahru later then headed all the way to paul's house at pasir ris later coz his bday. :) ate ate and the cake was very yummy and filling!!! yum yum!!!

he kept closing his eyes!

happy advanced 21st, birthday boy!!!!

To tell the truth,

even my friends care more about my feelgs than you do.

There is no lessons from wed-friday coz there's some motivation workshop till 5.30 from morng, and till 930 at fri!!! crazy

Im not gg anyway, gna rest at home i guess. Tho money spent will fly away :( I hate "think deeply bout your life and what you gna do with it" kinda stuffs. Hate thinkg bout it. Thuz not gg. Hopefully i'll spend my time doing my work and studying. HOPE.

BTW, did i mention

MY IPHONE HAS A MUTHAFUCKG 4.5CM CRACK ON THE SCREEN. Ahhhh and it hasnt even been a month. Durg ncc traing i asked others to look after my phone and i when i got it back it had this crack. URGH. I think i gta pay for it and get it fixed, srsly lookg at it makes me pissed. But where to get money? :(( Sigh.

I just wrote some stuff here but i backspaced it cos i dont think it's meant to be viewed public haha. Alright off now.

I am so tired. Today ncc was real fun hehe! The last time i did this was a year ago... How time flies.

Anyway, tests are all comg up soon, gta start studying properly. Friday is my day off so i wont be studyg i guess. Need to work hard this yr, i dont know what i will do if i cant go to that course, prolly cry my heart out and then do nthg. Even some of the guys was askg me why im so hardworkg this year. I even passed up all the hw for chinese this year. Which in 2009 i think i passed up like 2 or 3.

look at my grade. 22/100. Atrocious i know. So disgraceful lor. Chinese girl dont know chinese. Yknow i got this like kinda left out feelg sometimes when my malay friends speak malay and i dont know, well that's ok. I cant believe sometimes i can even get left out when my friends speak chinese to each other around me!!!! I sometimes dont understand what they are sayg. Urgh. i know la very stupid. I really envy those who can score in both english and chinese. HOW DO THEY DO IT?? omg. So i gta work hard for all my subjs as well. Ben even told me that i've changed, like in doing work and stuff i guess. Im just very scared i cant go in to the course i want. If i dont get i got low chances of helpg animals in the future and i gta take other crap courses? omg. I have no interest in anythg else at all!!!! urgh.

Ok enough enough. Wna relax for now, tired.

Heyhey!! I'm blogging through my iPhone now hehe. I'm v lazy on my com. Anyw had my maths test today. Ss test tmrw. Gta go study soon. Ahhhh I want to go out soon, I wna hang out w my friends soon, wna spend time w Ck soon. Aep is startg alr!! Gna end sch arnd 4 or 5. By march it'll end arnd 5 or 6 ahhhhh. Anyw I'm not really online often cos I'm usg my phone to check my mail and stuff hehe!! Save time! Okok bye all. Gta go study then eat!!! Hehee.

Ps. Loving my girlfs ttc!! :p

havent been blogging that much recently due to sch. soooooo yeah.

Anyw on fri got cca open house, also went to ngee ann open house.

blablabla feelg so fed up recently. so stresssed urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Want to bungee jump or free fall and scream all my problems awayyyyyyyyyy. dammit. Actually to be frank sometimes homework can help distress, yknow, you concentrate on your work you sort of can forget everythg, well almost. ahh heck.

Anyw gg to church alone later, fam not gg. Need some time alone, i think. sigh. bye bye bye.